Hello Uncle Stuart,
I haven't written on here for a while and i thought that it was about time I should.

I hope you're okay, well I know that you are cause i've never known you not too be, even when you were ill you never moaned, you didn't want anyone to worry about you.

We all went too your grave yesterday, it seems so unreal that it's 8 months now, I can remember the day like it was yesterday. I can always remember when Me, my Mum and Amy came back from Guildford and I came in too see you and you said too me not too be scared, I think I must have looked suprised by the way you looked compared to how you use to be, I just wish that I acted different back then, I never did say a proper goodbye to you or actually sit down and talk too you when you were ill, I was just too scared and I don't know why.

It's just so wierd that you've gone forever and i'm never going to see your face again, it just seems so blunt and permanent like it shouldn't be true but the horrible thing is, it is.

Things are still the same here as they were when you left us, I suppose everyone is getting stronger, Nan's been seeming to cope better lately, she still cried yesterday, it's like she's got a hole in her heart which no matter what she does she can't fill.

Anyway this is all i'm going too write today,
Miss you more then i did yesterday but less then I will tomorrow. Love you so much, speak soon, Katie x x x

UNCLE STUART.

Here I am again wanting to write something on here for you but not knowing what to say..

I think all I can say is that I miss you more than ever..

The time is going so quickly but it's still not feeling real at all.. Not to me anyway, it still feels as if you've gone on a really long holiday but thats not the reality of it.

I think finally that it's getting a bit easier for everyone. Obviously we all still miss you like mad but theres just something thats keeping us all going. We still have the same hiccup every month, but then I think we're always goin to have that..

I just really wish you were still here, cos I no for a fact that things would be so different. None of this would of happened and hopefully we could of all been a family like we once were but I know thats never goin to happen now. Things have gone way too far for that to ever happen.

I still think about you every single day and I think I always will..

I love you

Clair
xx

Stuart

If tomorrow starts without me,
And I’m not there to see.
If the sun should rise, and find your eyes,
Are filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn’t cry,
The way you did today.
While thinking of the many things, we didn’t get to say.

I know how much you loved me,
As much as I love you.
And every time you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
I hope you’ll understand,
An angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.

She said my place was ready, in heaven up above,
And that I’d have to leave behind, all those I dearly love.

I had so much to live for, so much that I should do,
It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.

I wish I could have said goodbye,
And kissed and seen you smile,
I wish I could have stayed with you even for a little while.

But then I had to realise, that this could never be,
Now emptiness, and memories,
Would take the place of me.

But when I walked through heavens gates,
I felt so much at home,
And then the lord looked down on me, from his golden throne.

He said, “this is for eternity, but I will promise you,
Although your life on earth has passed, here life starts anew”

“I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last,
And since each days the same up here,
There’s no longing for the past”

My loved ones, please don’t grieve for me,
Coz I am truly free,
And I will wait for you to come and share my life with me.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
Don’t think we’re far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I’m right here in your heart

Love and miss you forever XxXxXxXxXx

In My Blue Heaven

Lift you head please no more tears
and think of all those happy years
I'm in a place that I'm content
to my blue Heaven I've been sent.

Where Chelsea fans live on forever
Loyal and true we're all together
and in my Heaven of royal blue
I wear a smile and think of you

Every game that Chelsea play
these fans are with them all the way
cheering on from high above
for the boys in blue the team we love

So live your life and please don't dwell
and be at peace I'm safe and well
amongst my friends decked out in blue
in my blue Heaven I wait for you.

Mum & Dad

Mum I'm an Angel now
My spirit will be free
I'm an Angel now in heaven
So please don't cry for me

I was choosen by our Lord above
And now I'm in his care
Whenever you need me
Just look inside yor heart
I promise I'll be there

No one can ever take away
Our bond with one another
For I'll always be your precious child
As you'll always be my mother

So if you cannot find your way
Or the road home seems far
Just look up to the heavens
And I'll be your guiding star

Mum I'm an Angel now
My spirit will be free
I'm an Angel now in heaven
Theres no need to cry for me xxx xxx

For Stuart

Time has taken me from you,
Although not very far.
I'll be watching through the sunshine
And through the brightest star.


I'll be watching all of you,
From the heavens up above.
So take good care of each other
And carry all my love.


If you're ever wondering
If I'm there, here's where you can start.
Take a look inside yourself
Deep within your heart.


I'll always be your baby,
Your child,your brother.

So anytime you need me,
Close your eyes I'm back again.

Author Unknown

my thoughts and love are with you all always xxxx

Stuart

Well i went with mandy today to see your long awaited
headstone. It was no surprise. It is what it is !!
Any way we are all sending our love xxx

stuart

Hi stuart ,

Well darling as you know christmas is nearly on us again , I know this will be one of the hardest time so god knows what it will be like for your children , I was thinking today about last year and what a great time we all had , It must have been fate you and your family coming for boxing day so thankyou for making it such a speical day .. I miss you so much and time doesnt make it any easier ...

Fly free my son .

love you always mum xxxx

For Stuart

Stuart,



I know I am still with you
in your prayers, your thoughts, your heart
And though you cannot see me,
I will always be a part
of life's sweet celebrations
in those times when you reflect
on how, though things are different,
through our love, we still connect.
We'll see each other someday
when our spirits all are free,
until then, I am with you
because you remember me.
XXXX